“I am and always will be the optimist. The hoper of far-flung hopes and the dreamer of improbable dreams.” — The Doctor, Season 6 Doctor Who, Episode 6
I don’t know about you, but I am always thinking. No, this isn’t not a ha ha joke, but really…my mind is spinning thinking about all the things life has to offer. What’s is for dinner? I need to send that file. What was that last item on my grocery list. What am I going to wear to work? You know. Everything. But then, I have those moments of brilliance or so I am convinced. That brings me to this post. The last six years have been…(I want to use the right word)…sucky. Don’t get me wrong. I am truly blessed by my wonderful kids and a helpful and supportive husband. And my health is a 10. But all the grey from the economic depression…and it was literally that for us in mind, spirit and bank account..has taken its toll. I am positive. Leslie Knope positive. (If you don’t know who Leslie is..you really should). I will not give up. But sometimes…I just want to…go to Disneyland. Or shop without having to look at the price tag and doing the math. I know what you are thinking…you are doing well child. Why are you complaining. Well I am not complaining. I am venting. Venting is good. It cleanses the soul. And in this forum…I get to share it with the world. I thank you. What I want most…is a small vacation. To laugh, not cook or clean, and enjoy my family. All the other “stuff” will take its course. But a nice time with my kids and husband would be nice. My fantasy of this outing is a fantasy. Even if Oprah or Ellen swooped in and granted my wish…my teenagers would ruin it with the constant “no”, “I don’t wanna” and “why”. But I would take it any way.
Next up…how teenagers are like toddlers, only bigger and not as cute.